MOM...pretty simple word, a three letter palindrome...however, let's not forget that upside down it spells WOW!
As a child she was the one chasing away the monsters from under the bed, kissing the boo-boos better and staying up all night with you during flu season. As a teenager she was the one who "didn't understand!" and basically stood in your way of everything you "thought" you should be doing at the time. As you entered young adulthood, she was probably no longer around everyday, but somehow constantly reminding you to be responsible, pay your bills, take care of others and to basically "be smart".
It's only now...that I am a mother, do I truly appreciate the woman my mother is and what she has done for me over the years! For all those times I thought I would never want to grow up to be like my mom, I realise now I should be trying even harder to be like her!
Recently, during a visit to see me and my boys, my mom mentioned that the hardest part of the kids growing up, is the feeling of not being needed anymore. This couldn't be further from the truth! In fact, now that I'm a mother, I feel I need her guidance more than ever to help me raise these two boys, and hopefully mold them into two amazing young men. I need her to reassure me that all the hormonal feelings I'm having are "normal" and that this exhaustion does eventually get a little better. Somehow, no matter what we go through, even as adults, it's our own mom's voice saying "everything will be OK" that really sinks in.
This will be my second Mother's Day, and I now have two amazing little boys that will call me Mom. The love I have for them is truly indescribable. It's a combination of emotions ranging from love and pride to fear and anxiety all rolled into one. Whether it's nurturing my infant on the breast, or supplying my toddler with a never ending supply of crayons and fruit snacks...they need me, and I agree with my mom, that's a pretty special feeling. The love I have for my boys is something I can never have for anyone or anything else...and knowing that there is a woman who feels that way about me? Well that's a WOW right there!
Thank you Mom...for everything!
